R.A.I.N.B.O.W.S

October 10, 2007

Still got 35 minutes to our 7th month anniversary....
11th of October....
Yeah... 7 months...
Went through happy and hard times together...

But today really emo...
Kinda heart breaking...
Cried... cried... cried...
Sometimes I think that he don't really care for me...
Care about my feelings...
Sometimes he don't even bother or take the initiative to find me...
Sometimes won't spend his time with me too...
Abandon and leave me alone...
And sometimes I really hope that he will change his attitude...

He's nice, caring and sweet sometimes....
But sometimes he's....
I don't know how to say...
Still thinking am I wrong?
Should I say sorry?
I really don't know...
Who? who can help me?
Maybe relationships is meant to be like this...
Feel happy and sweet in most of the times but there will be sorrow and heart breaking times too...

But he just send me a mms just now...
Cute picture wishing me Happy 7th Month Anniversary and stuff...
I was touched and nearly cried...
Think I'm not that angry anymore...
But what he had done today makes me feel disappointed...

Still, as what he said...
'I think our relationship can last for a very long time and go through all the hardships together'... Hmm.... I really hope that what he said will come true...

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It's 12am....
Although you hurt me deeply sometimes...
But....
Dear, I love you too...
and I miss you...
Happy 7th month anniversary!

signed off @11:23 PM

October 8, 2007

Since I'm still awake now...
Decided to drop by here...
Still struggling for both of the assignments...
Macroecons and Business Communications....
Two BIG assignments....
15 marks for each of the assignments...
That's a lot!
Well, gambateh to myself....
I can do it...

Still thinking which country's GDP should our group use for the assignment...
Brunei, New Zealand, Japan, Brazil, France?
Any opinions?
Hmm......
A lot of information to find from the net too...
Stress stress stress...
Gonna be crazy....
Hope to finish the assignments as soon as possible...
Having test 2 on the coming Wednesday too...
Really got to study hard....
Who can teach me?

One more thing....
Bf is extra caring today...
Scared I'll get sick...
Keep asking me to sleep early tonight...
Aww... so sweet....
But it's almost 12am and I'm still in front of the computer...
Sigh... what to do...
Still have to find information for the assignment...
He even praised me....
He's amazed by my attitude...
Serious in my work...
Think I have to be more hardworking and serious in my work next time...
To prove that he's not wrong...
keke...
Really love my baby lotz...
Hope that he'll be this caring everyday...
Yeah... EVERYDAY...

Got to continue with my work....
I'll update more when I'm free...
Good night and sweet dreams everyone!

signed off @11:28 PM